Good afternoon... I'm at work now. Went for lunch just now, but I didn't eat anything much... Had a banana and orange juice. I was having somachache the whole of this morning. Had to go to toilet twice. Feel a bit tired now. I've emailed my sub-committee about their tasks already... Hopefully it'll be enough. Open to their suggestions though.

re·viv·al n.

1. A time of reawakened interest in religion.


2. A meeting or series of meetings for the purpose of reawakening religious faith, often characterized by impassioned preaching and public testimony.

Finally read the email that Raymond started. I can identify with what he wants to start in church. I also want to do great things for God. I just hope he knows how to wait on God and not do things in his own strength. I remember when I found God again, I felt 'on fire' and there were so many things I wanted to do for God. But there wasn't anyone else... I thank God that now there are people who want to burn for Him too... I thank God that my prayers have been answered. The bad thing is, there has been this 'jealous feeling' in my heart. I could pretend nothing was wrong and no one would notice but that shouldn't be the way to go. I've been feeling 'holier-than-thou-'. I've smirked at Raymond has said because I thought I knew more than him. Whether this is the case or not, this should not be how I should be acting... I'm VERY sure this is not what God wants. Christianity is not a competition. Burn this pride...

Sermon by Stanley was really powerful... He's getting bolder everytime he teaches. I think he senses that the congregation is ready to receive. He was speaking about our spirit prompting us between right and wrong. Wrote this during the sermon.
Thats why when we start spending more time with God, we begin to realise how filthy and unworthy we are. Because our spirit is awakened... but we shouldn't be discouraged because from the same source where we find out how unworthy we are, we get our redemption. Our unworthiness is only half the story! We have to continue spending time with God until we no longer desire to do wrong. Until the desire to please God overrides our own selfish, foolish desires.

I think this is one of the reasons why people don't spend enough time with God. Because we are made aware of our faults and shortcomings. But those that turn away forget that only by coming in humilty to Him that we experience forgiveness.

::: Quote of the Day :::
"Its knowing that He's in control that keeps me from losing control"

Decisions, decisions, decisions... I have to pray... I have to pray... I have to pray. Why me, why me, why me?
Its nothing, daryl... Don't get so worked up.